it had been long time i stop blogging, i guess is the lazybones in my body.. life had been going on as usual, but is just too hard to get rid of her in my mind. she had been there for more then 3 yrs, i do admit, all the while is just her, even until now. shit happen, life goes on, i know is just too hard to get her off, trying hard, really hard. i am sorry for those i had hurt. i am really sorry...